hurtful words

30/march/11 Wednesday Was not able to take the fact that my guy just simply use words on miie!! was keeping it in my heart for a long time!! finally BUST ALL OUT TO HIM!! crying and expressing and crying saying hw i feel in my heart THOSE WORDS HE USED ON MIIE!! FREAKING HURTING AND I JUST CRIED!! told him im not able to take this pain any longer!!! stop hurting miie!! he just kept qutie!! he keep saying sorri!! he've been saying sorri so many times!! and i also tell him no matter wad he's always FORGIVEN!! he just keep saying it!! i was not able to take it!!~~ cried and cried till i did not sleep till 5.30!! thinking wad can i do to myself!! he told miie he will change!!! told him there's not a need!!! i just keep thinking this!! if euu want miie soi badly!! i don see whye do euu even lie so many times to miie!!! whye???? i just feel that i'm not is just the prefect gal for euu??!!! that's how euu're making miie think though!!! i JUST FEEL THAT IM JUST CHEATING ON MYSELF!!!! I WANT EUU TOO!! i don knw whye is it so hard for miie to let go off euu!???? is just FREAKING HARD!!! trying but can't!!! feel that i reali CHERISH EUU IN MY LIFE!! LIKE GOLD!!! BUT EUU??? im not sure!!!! *NEVER I HAVE CRIED SO BADLY TO THIS EXSTAND